This is a lingering suspicion that memory is recollection;
but memory is more.
Remembering is an active, construction project.
or so say the psychologists and biologists
Yet I am inclined to believe them.
Because, for me,
memory is soft and malleable,
although there are a few
very rough corners.
These corners continue to stick out, even though
I try to mold and push the other memories around them
to soften their edges
and hide their marks.
They are painful corners of doubt and despair.